haih..

Why is it so hard for me to get something that I want or wish for

Im not asking for a box of diamonds,
not even a bag of money
im pretending like im happy whereas my heart is now crying in pain

do you know that?

Im happy and pretends like nothing happen
so that I won’t look like im weak in front of you.
You can consider now that im like a crying baby
who need to be hug and cuddle with
But what is wrong of being a baby in the age of 20
just to get attention from someone that you really love?

And after all,
In the end,
still I will be the one to blame
And yea, its my fault I guess : being too demanding & forcing!

Its okay now,
I gain my lesson
I hate promises
I hate words of hope

And now all the things I really want
You had me too afraid to ask..